I don’t think words can express how many feelings I get for this person. I wake up thinking about her and I fall asleep thinking about her. We text and talk on every social media possible and it makes me so happy and to be honest I wouldn’t want our friendship any other way. But it kills me everyday wanting more than a friendship with her and wanting to just have the simple fact of calling her mine. I’ve tried getting in other relationships in an attempt of being able to lose feeling for her but each one of them fails and all the happens is me liking her more and just wanting her by the second. She has such beautiful curly long blonde hair and these beautiful blue eyes that I stare at and just smile from them. She has such an independent attitude and she backs it up by proving herself at anything she does. She is so athletic and is a star at her sports and I always tell her I’m her number one fan. As I type this, I am constantly having to stop just to reply to her and even our conversation has me smiling like an idiot.
There was a day once where my world felt like it made a complete stop and all became so real when she sent me a text saying she had feelings for me and to be honest I couldn’t stop smiling and would have started dancing if it wasn’t for me being in a public work area. Sadly after a while she was scared of our friendship going to waste and well there went my happiness for about two weeks I honestly didn’t even want to hear of her name but then I came to a realization that I couldn’t be selfish and have a negative mindset of “If we can’t together we can’t be friends”, because at the long run when you love someone you just want that person happy even if it means at the expense of your own happiness.
Every morning I either receive a warm message from her or I send one and to be honest they bring me happiness. We all want a world in our own way but when we learn to accept it and be happy with our surroundings that’s when we experience true happiness. I’m not going to lie being with her and calling her my everything, and not in a sexual manner, Which I know sounds shocking in this time and age, would make my world but when I think about it more and more she already is my everything and even if it’s not in the terms I would like it still brings me joy.
I hope this post brought any type of encouragement to anyone going through the same, boy or girl, and just remember to think positive and enjoy the most important love of friendship, at times may suck but produces the best joy.